Recently, I've been feeling out of touch with myself. I used to dream of wonderful things, feeling that with enough hard work I could achieve anything I set my mind to. Yet, something happened along the way...but now with a sliver of hope, I don't want to wander in the blistering desert of forgotten dreams any more. I want to be awake. I know if I don't do something to hang on, to reach, and strive for more, I'll become paralyzed.
I know before too long, I'll end up a scared, fearful old lady wallowing in my bed in an old folks home...waiting for my time to die, haunted by the things I never did.
Nine years ago, I moved to New York a week before 9-11 (just my luck) and feeling angst about inner/outer turmoil, I took to writing in my journal. Through my writing, I discovered a curious thing - I would write down things that I wanted to for that day, and lo and behold it would happen! I'm not talking about tasks, but things I wanted...like wanting a certain friend to call, getting a interview, etc. It felt like magic!
I don't know how I forgot about this, but in the routine of my life I lost the ability to dream of things that I wanted to achieve this life. Luckily for me, when perusing through a bookstore (one of my favorite things to do) I came upon the book "Write It Down, Make It Happen" by Henriette Anne Klauser and was reminded about the magic of writing down the things you wanted to achieve.
For me, this was eye opening and at the same time invigorating. Before bed, I wrote down the things I wanted and realized that through some effort, most if not all were things that I could really achieve in this lifetime. This morning I woke up excited to get started living the life I want!
What follows is my wish list (in no order of importance):
- Write a book and screenplay
- Learn to play the guitar
- Learn to speak Spanish fluently
- Have a nice comfortably home with a vegetable/flower garden
- Be able to support a charity
- Travel the world
- Be a board member for something
- Be a good parent
- Act in a movie (Big Budget)
- Get to a healthy weight
- Go to the Oscars (with a date) and the after party!
- Love God, myself and others
- Die a peaceful or unfearful death
- Have a loving, romantic relationship with a man (dreaming of Zachary Levi)
- Run a marathon
- Dress in a feminine style (accessories and high heels)
- Be a Lady
- Have a monthly income of $20,000+
- Be able to support my Mom and Aunt in old age
- Have good fulfilling friendships
- Go on a medical mission trip
- Live in a foreign country for a few years
- Feel successful
- Start a family trust
- Have nice feet (I hate to show them - rather go naked)
- Dance
- Have a production company
- Have my own network channel
- Tone my body
- Provide for my child so that my child can start working on dreams early
- Get involved in positive activities that increase my knowledge
- Meet Oprah, President Obama, Zachary Levi (ah...to dream!)
- Have a pirate chic themed wedding of my dreams
- Go to a movie premiere
- Have a spot at the table with Chelsea Handler
- Guest star on SNL
- Do stand-up comedy
- Be pain free
- Stop fighting with my family (love but sometimes...)
- Win the lottery (huge jackpot)
- Own some real estate (apartment complex, offices, homes, etc.)
- Start a non-profit organization
- Swim in the Caribbean Ocean
- Take a big family trip to Alaska (see the northern lights)
- Start a clothing line
- Get a weave
- Have a son named Noah
- Be happy and free from depression
- Have custom made clothes and shoes
- Make someone happy
- Have a room in my house for painting
- Make a music video
- Stop living in poverty
- Help under privileged youth gain knowledge of the world
- Record a song
- Ride a horse in period costume on the beach
- Have a dog, goat, sheep and horses
- Live a simple Green lifestyle
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